Own your shit.

I’m always hearing jokes about multiple personalities all the time. I find it to be a super detrimental mindset. I know I’ve fallen victim to it for a long period of time. There is NOTHING wrong with having a diverse personality and we need to stop trying to package people neatly into boxes.

I am inherently a very private person. People are always shocked when I tell them I’m an introvert. I have be hard time opening up and talking about myself deeper than a surface level. Truthfully its where “Mifreaka” was born. Originally as a joke. But it was a layer that allowed me to embrace part of myself that I didn’t really understand at the time. Mifreaka allowed me to be confident, embrace my sexuality, embrace the fun. For awhile I lost sight of the shy, quiet, nerdy girl underneath. I didn’t think I could be “both” because people would consider me two-faced.

It got me to thinking about the duality of being an introverted-extrovert. Because on one hand I am this sassy, sexy, fun, hard-ass, and confident person who loves being surrounded by her friends. But on the other I’m also very reserved, serious, deeply feeling and thinking person that requires a lot of alone time. I tried to separate the two thinking one was worse than the other or people wouldn’t accept me as that whole. When in reality? It was me who had trouble accepting both sides of me because they are so vastly different. I didn’t exactly know how to balance them myself. I think for the first time really ever, I’ve achieved that balance in myself.

Sometimes I feel sexy. Sometimes I feel weird. Sometimes being weird makes me feel sexy? Theres days I want to go out clubbing and others I want to sit at home and not talk to anyone for days. I’m focused on my goals and education, but I also enjoy nights out with my friends or spending time in nature. There are times I may talk in a weird accent for an hour. These are ALL a part of me. They are all parts of me I love and accept. Denying one part of me is denying myself as a whole.

You are allowed to be whatever the hell you want to be and it doesn’t have to be neatly packed into any box. Embrace who you are. Embrace it well. Show yourself love and respect. You are varied and complex, its what makes you beautiful. Be authentic to you regardless of what anyone else says.