Paralyzed.

What defines us?

Is it our accomplishments? Is it the people we are surrounded by? Is it that voice in our head?

Who are we?

Not going to lie, I've been feeling pretty down and out lately. Things in no aspect of my life truly seem to be going quite my way and I'm rolling with the blows but its hard to not get discouraged. It's easy to complain. It's easy to become ungrateful. Its easy to let these low points define your worth because that voice in your head is telling you that its all you'll ever be worth.

I freeze when I get into these mindsets. I completely shut off and start doing the bare minimum to get through the day. I lose myself. I haven't been really been doing the things that make me happy. I've been letting the voice win.

So there I am in therapy today, complaining. In that moment, something just clicked...

Are you going to let your worst moments define you? Or are you going to allow yourself to push past these moments to see your true worth?

The fear of that voice being right paralyzed me. And instead of proving it wrong I was proving it absolutely right. I lost my consistency and discipline. Momentum is a very powerful thing but without routine and discipline its not sustainable.

So whats the answer? We're all humans, we fall prey and part of growing is failing over and over again. I've talked about it a million times. So what's different this time?

I'm self aware.

Did I fall off the wagon a little bit? Sure I did. But picking myself has never been easier because I have strong core values that I continuously come back to.

I truly believe if one is disciplined, willing to fail and learn, and continuously puts in effort theres no way to fail.

Education, Execution, Elevation.

I fell off. I saw where I went wrong. I fixed it. I elevated from it. Next time it happens? It'll be even easier and faster to get back on the wagon. And YES I am expecting to fall off again. After all, I'm only human.

Here's to being back on the consistency wagon.