The Dark Knight Returns

Been awhile since I've been here. Been off living this grand adventure we call life. I've returned with some rather good news- my identity crisis has found a grand resolution. It's never going to go away and you know what? That's pretty damn ok.

So where have I been? I wish I could say off doing something utterly riveting like zip lining through the Rainforest or learning to become a medicine woman or a slew of other things. Rather I've been focusing on doing this little thing called finding balance. What a road its been.

I guess when I left off here I was heartbroken, confused, and searching for answers. I didn't feel at the time I had a lot of value to give. I was lost. I've come back with deeper understanding that we there are questions there will never be answers to. Even more so- questions we don't need to answer. I've come back with clarity that who we are doesn't need a definition, that emotions are meant to be felt, and often times we are confused because we aren't looking at the bigger picture. I've been practicing vulnerability. I've been practicing feeling. I've been practicing stillness.

I found presence. And through finding presence I've found an absence of fear. An absence of fear of things I don't understand. An absence of fear that I do not provide value. I've stopped trying to understand everything logically and started to just be conscious of where I am and whats happening. In doing so, I've found myself. The purest form of myself I think I've ever been.

I'm back and I've learned a lot. I'm looking forward to sharing it. . And you know what? I finally got that little voice in my head to shut the hell up.